The past has let me down but it has told me that I cant do it and now the bullet has been dogded again but for how long?
If you were leaving I would want to follow you so because I never got to pay you back both took bullets for me to survive
Crying tears I’ve never cried, I’ve dodged the bullets but from my past I cannot hide
Please let me show you the man I have become, tell me your proud that you raised my right as you raised my left and told me to stand like a man , Women may come and go, alcohol can be drank but its not the same without you there. You both made me
If you left I dont know what I could do to make up for my shortcoming.
You were a real man who did what you needed to. Dont you know with out you I would have not surrived? Dont you know that people will not forget all the little shit that you did for this family both of you meant so much to me. The gift of life you both suffered for me You were the strongest woman never letting me go to stray away
You cant go ! I wont let you go I must move on! I want to let you know that I am just like you ready to accept the world as it is as our fathers did and you told me not to worry its never to. My first memory was your blue eyes the eyes of true love and compassion.
The mother that held me from evil until I left
You helped a small seed grow into a giant tree and I wish I could tell you like you told me ” im proud of you” I know we’ve had our ups and down, my anger which you understood, who tried to kill you and the children who fought for you even if you were wrong the love of both I could never choose
You were and always will be the world to a small star in the deep blue skys
teaching me the blues .. strumming my guitar you told me men werent supposed to weep
so I holp my tears back and play another lifeless tune showing me my spirt
the world out of tune a mother fighting to keep it all together Children should never lose their innocence she would say the mother knows what men do not..
the blood seeps from, the chords and hopes that I had of us ever spending time as men as the man my mother raised me to be..
reflecting our reflections inspecting my life with another world. how he came out west to find himself and found himself inside of a soul. The sky gentle as it is weeps for you and I hold back my tears for the way I was treated The mother that was always there! She was alone but kept herself strong never weak as a goddess does
You both told me to be a man is to accept the consequences of your own actions
I do
Im sorry I left you in anger to find the world but you told me this is what a man does
this is what a man is the stone figure standing tall
the former shadow of myself will never over shadow you or the mother that made me
I shattered myself to let you live to see me repay you for my sins and glories
I am the next chapter to your stories the son the brighten your darkness
I will tell my sons and daughters of the things you could never learn in school
deep down inside I regret that I was a fool disrespecting you such words can never be said to a woman like you!
But here I stand playing you this simple song
So time and age may move along
My creators woman and man
so much conflict but true in actions
may equal the words to say I love you both
Mother and father the most holy inside!
The family that never left me…
